What am I doing wrong: Letter of a Frustrated Blogger to himself

 

Why am I not getting any traffic?

Why am I not earning even a penny a day?

What mistakes am I making?

What the hell am I doing wrong?

Like thousand others bloggers, I’m striving for the same answer. Sometimes it’s so frustrating that I feel like quitting. Sometimes I wonder is it really what I want to do. Is it what really I am intended to do? Do I like doing what I do?

Meanwhile, I started reading books, watched inspirational success stories, looked for the answers in TEDx talks. I literally started hunting how to get success. After reading some inspirational books or watching an inspirational video, I get inspired like hell. Here is one such video:

 

It seems all easy then. At first I stay full of sparks. Ideas keep exploding in my head. The next day it slows down a bit. Things get a little calm, and I’m like – Okay enough of the videos, let’s do some real work now. I take out the laptop, sit down and look for a topic to write on.

After choosing a random topic, I started writing. Sometimes the article gets finished and sometimes they don’t. However, the next day, things get below saturation. I have no intentions to write. Yet, I opened my computer, open Google and looked for a topic. Few minutes later, I don’t know where I’m lost. Sometimes I even end up in YouPorn, searching for you know what.

 Anyway, the thing is I feel too lazy to open the text editor and start typing.

Was I procrastinating? I was not even sure about that.

I believe I’m not the only one who faced such situation. You must have been into the similar situation. Haven’t you? And let me tell you, you & I are not alone in this, thousands if not million; bloggers face the same situation daily. But it really wasn’t this bad at the beginning.

When I started my blog, it was a mere post-exam-pass-time experiment. Unsure of what am I doing I kept on doing. I had a keen interest in computer-mobile-tech-tricks kind of stuff. Anything related to technology used to interest me. So whatever I kept posting whatever I knew, though in my semi-broken English.

Anyway, as far as I can remember, I started taking blogging seriously after reading Harsh Agarwal and Amit Agarwal’s success stories. My blogging journey began since then. After that, I started learning about other geeky things related to blogging, like Search Engine Optimization, Social Media Marketing, etc.

In that period, I used to write a lot. I had a diary where I used to track the numbers of posts I published in my blog. It was all fun then. I never bothered about the traffic. Though I obviously wanted to increase the traffic, but it was never the kind of big deal.

I remember crafting my most popular post on my blog. I knew almost nothing about Search Engine Optimization except, adding alt tags to images and making the URLs descriptive-with-keywords. Keyword research was an alien language to me. I’ve never even heard about that. Anyway, it was the festive season. The best thing about India is the festivals in here.

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That day, it was Durga Puja, one of the greatest festivals, here in India. In that particular day, I used to spend all my time in my Cousin’s house. It was morning, and I was all prepared to leave. Then mom asked me to wait as she would be going with me. I knew, mom won’t be ready anytime soon. In this only situation, all females are predictable. As a matter of fact, girls waste 3276 hours of their lifespan grooming and getting ready. None of our concern, though.

Anyway, so now I had close to an hour of time to kill. I thought, why not write a post. I started looking for a topic, and there it was the most popular title of this blog – How to hide any folders or files in android without any third party apps? It was the most-non-cared-badly-written or literally the worst article I’ve ever written. I just knew how to do it, so I wrote it as it is with a wicked sense of humor. I finished it, checked for spelling mistakes and published it. Mom was ready, so I shut my computer down and left. I never looked back at the article, never bothered to share it nowhere.

After the puja, it was exam time. So my old semi-broken desktop was in deep sleep for a long period. Exams went terribly bad, and I was sure I’m going to fail in math. However, I was happy that exams were over. I brought my desktop out of the hibernation and opened my blog. Boom! The stats I saw were beyond my imaginations. I received more than 1000 visitors in last 24 hours!

For a blogger who gets no more than 13-14 visitors a day, my situation was nothing less than this:

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It was a hell more exciting than topping the exams! When I looked into the details of the stats. I saw that the most-non-cared-badly-written post was topping the search engine. Without wasting a minute, I opened Google and did a quick search with the phrase – “Hide Android files without apps”. There it was, at the top flying like a hero. Now, I’m not too emotional kind of a person, but yes it was something that bring tears off your eyes.

I shortened the phrase a bit – “Hide Android files”. Same result. It ranked top, beating all the big players of the game. It was more special because I didn’t have a domain. It was a .blogspot.com blog then.

After that magic moment, I wrote several posts in the next two months. All of them were performing well, not as good as the previous one, but good. I didn’t know a hell about search engine optimization or anything & guess what I hardly cared.

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I realized I was stopping myself from writing or publishing because I wanted to write the best post. A post that should be appreciated by everyone & shared by all. I know I’m little young here at ShoutMeLoud to advice, but take it from me: Perfection is a myth. You can’t be better until you make mistakes, somebody point out your mistakes, or you realize it yourself & then things will get better & better. But perfect? You are your perfection at this time.

Yah! I said it & It is the only reason most of the bloggers like me & you end up not writing, waiting for that moment to write or keep browsing internet without doing anything concrete. I know that feeling when we search all of the internet to learn every tips & trick of blogging to be another great blogger, but hey that’s not how things work. Always remember:

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When I get over with the feeling that the whole world is watching me & I can write in anyway as long as it’s meaningful & helpful, things changed. It changed so much that I realize intent is more important than words & this is why I landed here today in front of you.I waited keenly for the next opportunity to publish the next post on my blog. And now I avoid the opportunities on the basis of some silly excuses.

That particular period was the golden period for my blog. After that, I was not yet able to bring that traffic back. Gradually I went into a breakeven point, fully into a saturated state. No matter what I did, the traffic never went up. It was all stuck in between 900 -1100. And I’m still stuck in there.

Meanwhile, I applied for AdSense. I was yet not using the custom domain name with my BlogSpot blog. I knew I was going to get rejected. Still, looking for a miracle I hit the apply button. The next day I received a mail from AdSense that I was rejected. Known conclusion.

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Many blogs are making huge money from AdSense. Not to mention that my dream blogger, Harsh Agrawal is on that list too. More than that, we human are hard wired for not accepting the rejection. So it’s become my immediate  goal to get an approved AdSense account. Another reason for getting AdSense account may be the money,

Anyway a few days later, I managed to buy a domain name, used this tutorial to set a custom domain for my BlogSpot blog. Posted lot of articles whenever I got time. Changed the theme to something professional and groomed the blog a bit. Hit the apply button, again. Went to sleep. Two days later they sent me a mail that my blog has been accepted. I had no words to express my happiness.

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The thing that I had dreamt of had come true. I never knew what was next. However, I was all excited about it and why not, I was about to get rich of my own!

Probably this is one of the biggest mistakes bloggers like me make. After spending thirty days and nights with AdSense, Google slapped a harsh truth on my face. After a month, I was making just $0.0 to $0.05 a day! That’s like, $1 – $2 a month. That’s not even good enough to buy a gift from my first income for my mom.

I was fully broken. All my dreams, everything that I’ve imagined was shattering down. I didn’t know what to do. I decided to do hell with AdSense & focused on writing & true sense of blogging. Back in my head I definitely wanted to see more AdSense income, but I was like let me focus on what really mattered the most for me.

While gawking around Google, I heard of someone named Sandeep Maheswari, a successful Entrepreneur from India. He arranges motivational Seminars and posts those videos in YouTube. I started watching his videos and got inspired from his words. To sum up whatever he says in his seminars – “It easy, just don’t quit”. All his experiences, failures, success stories, whatever he told in his seminars, totally shook me up.

I read the above quote from somewhere. And it stuck me. I wasn’t failing!! I never failed! And that appeared to be the biggest failure of me.

This morning when I woke up, a huge brainstorm was devastating inside my head. I don’t know what it was. I couldn’t concentrate in anything. Then it came to me, why not just sum up what’s going on and type it down. And here it is.

This is not my problem; this is what all newbies blogger face. They start up with sparks. But the sparks don’t fly long.

Though the videos kept me inspired for a few days, the block returned soon. I was same old lazy tortoise looking for excuses not to write. The spark is dead. The same spark that made me posts a viral article in a spare time of one hour. The same spark that took the blog from 10 to 1000 visitors a day. It isn’t alive anymore.

Is it dead forever? Can’t it be brought back to life? Can I love writing, like the same old time? Well, nothing’s impossible. Let’s start another endeavor pulling our best to push it a bit further. Let’s together, all of us, who’re stuck in the same traffic, make the impossible possible.

I’ve made a quick list of things that I’m going to do. I don’t care if I fail. I don’t have anything to lose.

  1. Forget Search Engine Optimization.
  2. Forget Social Media Marketing.
  3. Forget link building.
  4. Forget keyword targeting.
  5. Start reading. A lot. And if possible, prefer paperbacks in your diet. E-books are not that sexy.
  6. Start writing, like, actual writing, using paper and pen. Researchers say freehand writing increases imagination power and cures creative blocks. Write whatever comes to your mind, starting from how you love your crush to how a tuna-fish-salad is cooked. Just ink it down.
  7. Write one post a day.
  8. Write because you love to write, not because you have to write.
  9. Write what you love to write, not what you have to write.

A long list, you might say. The cure of a big-old disease always needs a large list of medicines. Quick tip, just tear out a piece of paper, write it down and stick it to the wall.

There is fame; there is money. And then there is time. It’ll take away everything from you. Everything. Everything you earned, everything you have worked hard for. But there’s one thing, even time can’t take away from you. It’s the present. The moment you’re living is the greatest treasure of your life. So live it. Forget the past, forget the future, just live it now.

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Read. Read. Read. Write.

This frustrated letter is contributed by Niladri. Want to contribute something for ShoutMeLoud bloggers community? read our submission guidelines.

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Just another frustrated blogger, standing at the verge of quitting, trying to stand up again.

86 thoughts on “What am I doing wrong: Letter of a Frustrated Blogger to himself”

  1. Ashok Kumar Pippal

    Such a nice post for new bloggers. Every blogger face this situation. Those who don’t give up become successful. In my view it takes atleast1-2 years to establish yourself on web world.

  2. I can completely relate to this article. From rejection by Google Adsense, getting a good traffic one day and literally no traffic on the other, the wish of writing the perfect blogpost, I have experienced it all. But still I continue to write. I believe somewhere down the line it will benefit me and lead to bigger and greater things in my life, one way or another.

  3. Hi Niladri,

    Nice post. Inspirational!!
    I can relate it to mine when i started with blogspot.com blog. To be honest i was rejected twice from adsense.

    One thing i would like to say after reading this article is to “To Believe in Yourself” and “Concentrate” on what we do.

    Thanks bro,

  4. I am also a very new blogger. Only two months old. Even I can’t call me a blogger now. I have written only 12 posts since two months. I have not a pc yet. I am blogging using my mobile phone and I think my english is very bad. Your post is very helpful for me. thanks for your post very much.

  5. The video was really touching and inspirational. It is when people who “seem to have nothing” speak of being thankful and enjoying life that people who “seem to have everything” really understand the value they have given to life.

  6. Hi Niladri,

    This is the story of every blogger today and one thing I like the most is we are not quitters. As there is saying “Winners Never Quit, Quitters Never Win”. So, I would like to advise myself and other fellow bloggers to Never Quit and Keeping Writing.

    Thanks,

    Subha Sadiq

  7. Hi Niladri,

    I’m also the same situation, first i started the blogspot.com and i applied for adsence but its rejected and i stooped that blog and after long time i started new news portal. In this process i learned more about adsence for the first time only i get approval from adsence present my site (apnewscorner.com) in google news.

    Right now my site running good but i did not earn much from my site, i just started my SEO journey with shoutmeloud.com i found your article its too emotional and inspirational for me.

    Now I’m slowly learning SEO and Link building but I’m not reading frequently that is main minus point any way thanks for the great article…

    Thanks,
    Ramana.

  8. Abhishek Awasthi

    Awesome post by a frustrated blogger. My situation is similar to you. The whole story is similar to my blogging story.

  9. Hi Niladri,

    Truly awesome blogpost,very similar to my situation. However, a much needed confidence booster.

    Thanks a lot for the booster.

  10. Hi Niladri.
    How are you?
    We are husband and wife bloggers from Mumbai, India.
    We started our blog in the first week of this year
    And your headline describes us very well.
    We have met with no success at all,
    so our BIG question is as you say…
    “What are we doing wrong?”
    Even we started our blog due
    To the success stories of
    Harsh Agarwal and Amit Agarwal.
    They are literally heroes to us.
    It is awesome to see you getting
    1000 hits a day.
    How did you do it?
    Can you please share?
    Taks for the wonderful post.
    Best wishes and regards

  11. Awesome Write up Niladri! I could very well connect myself to this post. Happens to everyone of us. Just what they say – everything should start up somewhere. I have learned painful lessons through out the blogging journey but still enjoys to write for a blog that brings little to nothing in terms of money. But it gives me the satisfaction I need in work :-).

    One thing I would like to suggest is keyword research is very very important. One can neglect link building but never keyword research nor on-page seo. With just targeting super long-tail keywords and tight on page seo you can bring in nice chunk of traffic over a period of time. And patience is the key here 🙂

    Thanks for sharing your experience!

  12. wow that sounds like me ,but you know what they say,the journey is more important than the destination atlist we know what does not work

  13. You have captured the struggles of a blogger very well… the highs the lows, the realization that it’s not worth it, but hanging on… well done!

  14. I am little surprised, you earn 1-2 dollars when you get about 1000 -1200 views. How? like i have started blogging and i also earn the same amount with 12-20 views per day. I should be happy about that.
    Jokes apart,your story perfectly fits my situation and after reading this i am sure what i have to do now. Fro. tomorrow i will write an article daily.

  15. Joseph Chikeleze

    Most bloggers do faced this – I faced it also. Thanks for giving a detailed post about newbie challenges.

    Have a cool day!

  16. Hey Niladri,
    I am also facing the same problem as i am not getting the traffic to my website,i have got relevant information through this post but its not enough for me so please provide some more detail so that i will be benefited.

  17. Hi Niladri,
    This is truly a write up from the depth of your heart. It reflects the struggles of all the newbie bloggers like you and me. But, we should never give up hope. Hope is the only thing that motivates us during tough times of blogging and not getting traffic.

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